What did you say?

Little voice in my head says:

‘They’re taking to goddamn hobbits to fuckin Isengard.’

Today is one of those days, when you have all those loathsome selfish thoughts that you wish you wouldn’t have.

You know, thoughts like:

‘I wanna get away from everything. I wanna forget about everything and move on by running away to another country, and start a new life.’

Yes. I said selfish. But I forgot to mention stupid as well. When you just pause and think about it, that won’t happen.

Why?

Because your FRIENDS would probably fucking kill you before you do that. =)

So I’m just gonna keep hanging on. Wish me luck.

That’s what she said.

Little voice in my head says:

‘my mother’s father’s grandson told me to tell you something. I forgot’

First Twitter. Next, Vloggin.

Seriously, I don’t see the point in blogging anymore. I remember how much I used to blog, like, DAILY, sometimes, 2 posts per day. But then again, that was 3 years ago, when EVERYONE had a blog.

Now, everyone has Twitter. I do too. Sorry blog.

Yet, I still strive to be different from the rest.

Hence, with my new Flip Mino HD camcorder, I shall officially kick-start my new vlog channel on Youtube with my New Zealand trip, starting next monday.

You laugh at me because I’m different? I laugh at you because you’re all the same.

 

Some times, a simple ‘No’ would be more appropriate than a vague and pointless reason. Work it out. Sort it out. I have feelings too.

Then again, I’m just fat. So I will end this post at a random note and

What gives you Hope?

‘Dressing up is like foreplay.’

I was reading LGMH last night. Some stories were just to…movie-like fake-ish. Get me? Like, it doesn’t happen in real life. It doesn’t. Stop dreaming.

But some, talking about love between best friends and siblings, make me go AWWWWW. like, a big AWWWWWWWWWW. Just for fun, AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW…

No, seriously.

I think it’s because, I really love my friends. I may not be the best guy around the block, but I do cherish the dudes and dudette’s who’ve stuck by me. Growing up as a single child, I never had any sort of sibling love. So reading about those touching moments with your brother or sister, I get jealous. I guess that’s also another reason why I love my friends so much. I think sometimes, I pour in some brotherly feelings into my friendships.

I’m talking weird.

Though I hated reading those LGMH that talks about guy meet girl, vice versa, become best friends, out of the blue, propose, she says yes. LGMH.

WHAT?

That only happens in movies. I’m sorry. I’m a pessimist. Maybe it’s because I’ve had bad experiences with those kind of friends-turned-lovers situation. Well, not exactly, but around that realm of situation.

Again, I am talking nothing.

Do you think I’m cute?

I think, again, for too many times, my ratings with girls just plummeted to the ground with THAT kind of pictures.

No wonder I’m single. Meh.

What happened to the ice cubes?

‘I’m tapping the walls to see if they’re really there.’

Dad’s finally agreed to get me my Flip Mino HD camcorder.

Isn’t it just beautiful? Getting mine in black though. =)))

Now I can really get my vlog project on the roll. Gonna kick start it with my trip to New Zealand!

 

That’s the happy part.

But honestly,

I’m still pretty much very bored and lifeless at home. Not to mention, I can’t stop these contradicting feelings and pesky thoughts.

Really, I guess, I could never really hope for much.

Pushed back against the wall.

Little voice in my head says:

‘Brake. Look around, then go.’

Though I beg to differ, I think knowing the truth and have reality smack you across the face hard, is a worse suffering.

I guess.