My heart is as messed up as my morning hair.

You can never find the right person if you can never let go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you suddenly remember why you held on for so long.

Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve.

Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are.

Perhaps it's time I took a stand.

In and out....(you dirty-minded bastards. heh)

I tried to come up with some interesting posts, like light and hopefully amusing. I actually wanted to blog about it, really had some good lame stuffs to share.

But it's hard when you're like this again.

And I'm supposed to be 18. =.=" So much for being matured and legal(ok not yet la, but still...)

So I'm still the bastard I was, always will be. Not that I haven't accepted the fact that I'll always be like this, in fact, I predicted this will eventually happen. What I didn't expect was it to happen so SOON.

Unresolved matters are a pain. You can't just brush them under the rug and leave them alone.

URGH.

Hate feeling like this. ^*&Q#$%Q(*

What's so hard to forget la? Diu. All the fucking insecurities I'm feeling is making me neglect and take for granted things I swore to myself I would protect. OMG, so cheesy, but hey! cheesy words can still be words that mean a lot.

And I just wasted 34 minutes trying to type out things I wanted to say, and ended up back-spacing everything. Colossal waste of time. My life is productive.

For dessert, crushed nuts.

Seriously, dulan has lost all meaning.

Transformers 2 big screening starts today. Don't get to watch.

Lady Gaga concert tickets. Sold out. In less than 12 hours.

Mom won't let me go out, because she's being so damn paranoid, kononnya Swine Flu. If we had treated the pigs better, maybe we wouldn't have to suffer today.

Problem still not solved. Tried to pen out some reasons and solutions, but epic fail la.

In the end, I repeat the mantra that will always live with me:

'I can never get what I want.'





Fark.

There is nothing fast and nice.

HELO!

Holidays are almost halfway through, and yes, I AM GLAD! God help me.

But anyways, I haven't been blogging much because my days usually consist of facebook-ing, msn, manga, blog reading, facebook and more facebook. Punctuated here and there with occasional outings with kawans.

And jeebz, sudah promise bawa kawan to MOS, until today pun belum bawa.

Sorry for the terrible malay, just came back from PAS controlled Kelantan.

HENIWAYS!

MORE NEWS ON LADY GAGA!

1. Lady Gaga is currently dating metrosexual asian boy, Victor Goh! The 'Poker Face' songstress admitted to the relationship yesterday when photographs allegedly showing Lady Gaga and Victor Goh locking lips at a pub surfaced on the internet. Said Lady Gaga: 'I'm really happy, and it's not something I'm ashamed of. He's hairy and I like it.'
2. Lady Gaga's official Concert in Singapore has been confirmed. It will be on the 12th of August 2009.
3. TICKETS ARE BEING SOLD NEXT WEDNESDAY (24th June) AT ALL SISTIC OUTLETS FOR A PRE-SALE PRICE OF SGD 75! (heh, no doubt who's going to get his ticket first.)

OMG OMG I DAM HAPPY LA!

VS

Heh, not bad la.

P/S: TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN also coming out on the 24th right? OMG! Wednesday is gonna be an awesome pawsome day. XD

Oh look, an air ball.

Hmm...it's been long since I've done this, but here's my very very very rare shot at movie reviews. (because I suck at it, and tend to be bias.)
Well, considered that I didn't watch the first one, I guess I picked up fairly quickly from where the movie left off. Ben Stiller still has it going, though there were some weak attempts at humor. Still, a pretty good laugh out loud movie. Won't leave much of an impression though. 7/10.
Heh, well, it's definitely not Pixar. Hmm...a pretty weak story plot in my opinion, but packed with a good dose of childish humor. B.O.B, the indestructable blue glob is the GLOB OF THE YEAR! Love that guy to bits. 6.5/10

One word: Meh. OK fine, I only watched T3, the 3rd movie, so sue me if say the story is still confusing as hell. I know for a fact John Connor,well-portrayed by uberawesome Christian Bale, is supposed to be the protagonist of this film, but clearly is overshadowed by another character who turns out to be part-man, part-machine. Predictable at some stages. Good CGI's and effects though. 6/10.

Now, for all you LADY GAGA fans out there, I know that you all share the same pain as me, for it is plain utter BULLSHIT that her gig in Singapore today is an EXCLUSIVE INVITES ONLY! Dammit, I am pissed off! She is so near me, I can almost FEEL her.

HOWEVER!

Fear and despair not, fellow Gaga fanatics, for the ever-so awesome-pawsome-mest Lady Gaga will never let her fans down.

LADY GAGA LIVE IN SINGAPORE! OFFICIAL GAGA CONCERT IN AUGUST! YES! YOU HEARD RIGHT! AUGUST! WHICH MEANS, YOU GET TO BUY TICKETS AND SEE HER PERFORM!

I am so happy now.

'Lady Gaga fans got mighty vocal when they learned that her June showcase in Singapore was an invite-only event . Today, LAMC Productions announced that Lady Gaga will be back in Singapore this August for a full-fledged concert. More details to come.' (Junkonline.net)

I know it is yet to be 100% confirmed, BUT THERE IS HOPE! There is a saying that goes like Man can live without food for 7 days, 3 days without water, 2 minutes without air, but cannot live without HOPE.

and that particular hope people, comes in a package so hot it will shrivel your testicles or melt your ovaries.She is so fucking hot to me right now. My wildest fantasy in one sexy body, one great soul. *swoon*

And just to set the record straight, contary to popular belief, VICTOR GOH IS 100% STRAIGHT, NON-GAY. I am so into girls. Hence, it is impossible for people to imply I'm homosexual.*on the phone screen, spells VICKY*

...

I am so gonna get a girlfriend soon.

Let's make this tick, with a big fat flick.

Waaaa...so unlike me. No blogging for almost a week. Meh.

So ICPU Prom was...really something else I have to say. It had everything I didn't expect, but not all I expected. Different is really the word.

Yes, mafia. Hmm...WELL...some people say I got the mafia thing down, some said (cough, bryan) I looked like a magician. =.="
Yeap. No tongkat. No black leather gloves. But yea man, Christine, the Godfather's mistress. HAHA.

All in all, a great prom. Just hated the last part when they started playing those love hits, and so we singletons have to sit out and watch the couples dance. Deja-fuckin-vu man. I hate it when everything always reminds me something I'm trying so hard to forget. I thought I did, but nope, it came back to me like you just pressed the 'Refresh' button. The drive back home, at midnight, listening to Kris Allen, FWAH! It's a miracle I survived.

Lol. Fuck all that.

So now that Prom is over, don't have much to do now. Heck, 1 month to go man. As much as I gripe about college life and stuff, I've finally accepted that life in college is much more interesting. Ho-hum. Siened at home.

I really am wondering what exactly am I feeling now. What am I really going through now? Is it the same as before, or something different? Mood-swings kill you know?

Barley water rocks.


when it's time to let go, drop, and move on.

I'm gonna punch you in the ovaries.

OMG! WARDROBE EMERGENCY!!!

*i've discovered the guilty pleasures of shopping.*

In desperate need of :

1. Black top hat.
2. Black leather gloves.
3. Pure white scarf.
4. Good looks.
5. Fit body.
6. Prom date.

Shit.

When the tables turn again.

ICPU SEMESTER 1 : OVER!

5 WEEKS OF HOLIDAYS: COMMENCE!

BOREDOM : ACTIVATE!

lol. Seriously. It's not even really a day yet, and here I am, FEELING MUCHO BORED!

Dieded.

Prom shopping tomorrow. I think I kinda figured out how to be 'mafia'. Hope I can pull it of.

Hmm...well, I'm surprised that I'm surprised. I thought I knew, I thought I had everything in the bag, that everything was going according to plan. Today, after talking about it, only then I realized, the enormity of the changes I have made.

Can't really put my finger around it yet...

But well, I think I kinda miss it. Maybe if I were not so self-centered and so self-righteous, maybe things would've turned out differently. Or maybe not. For I know this heart isn't lying. So I'm doing what I've always been doing: looking back at my yesterdays, because those were the beautiful days I miss. It's such a shame I can't create new,fond and beautiful memories with you now, so I'll always be looking back.

Oh, now I've got it. It's regret. I'm feeling regret.


Thanks to a friend for, once again, opening my eyes. What would I do without you. =)

Scratch your neck. Feel the burn.

Jaws:

'Eh, so your a NST journalist now? I thought they had a weight restriction?'

FML. FML. FML.

=.="

Yea man, so glad you're graduating. Jeez.


ONE MORE PAPER LEFT! Advanced functions. They always save the hardest for the last. But heck.

Plans for the FIVE weeks holiday:
1)meet up with kawans.
2) fulfill all the promises of going-outs. (dam a lot of these wei)
3) Gaga shopping.
4) meet up with more kawan.
5) practice for prom performance.
6) PROM!
7) MOS! (with dam lot of people also.)
8) get money to do all the above.
9) lose weight. (no seriously, still looking for a gym partner.)
10) emo.


I took out Advanced Functions past year paper to do. Looked at question one. Then proceeded to play Pet Society. MLIA.