It's that moment of the night again.

And now,

again.

I don't want to feel like this any more.

Anything but this.

If I have to fall back into this hole,

every single fucking time,

I give in to my feelings.

I rather not feel at all.

Because this is all too familiar.

I hate myself.

Yes, that over-used phrase.

But then again,

I don't know what to say any more.

I want to stop these tears,

that are so real.

Fuck.

This is how pathetic I am.

because I never was.

You deserve better than this.

All of you.

But

not today, not tonight.

Good night and bye.